ScarlettStunningSpace

Fuck those people.

I’m so fucking tired

Echo chambers are a huge problem only made worse by the internet full of dysfunctional and lonely men who uphold the patriarchy and propagate that everyone is out to get you (especially all those minorities that don’t actually affect your life that much or at all) and it protects the rich due to infighting and overworking the majority of Americans. Nobody wants to be thrown in jail and risk their family not having necessities. And it just keeps escalating it seems. Something will collapse eventually and ideally everyone would have solidarity and make a difference in their local community so nobody has to worry about going without basic necessities for survival. But who knows what could happen. Best to enjoy things as much as possible in case it gets taken away.

I try to say things like, “I know I don’t understand your pain but I wish you peace and know that your efforts are not wasted.”

I’m really proud of you for being you and for fighting for today and tomorrow. I’m sorry for your pain. I don’t understand your struggles, I know what it’s like for a different reason to feel demotivated and tortured but you still treat everyone with compassion as much as you can. It’s so exhausting when there’s always something you have to worry about and it seems like it will never get better. I hope it isn’t like that forever.

People that get jealous and/or insecure are so exhausting. And not because I don’t want to reassure them. It’s because you make me feel bad for being myself. So I’m not sorry my light is brighter than yours that’s not my problem or I will make it your problem. I’ll make sure my light shines extra bright because it makes you so upset. I’m not being unreasonable here, I’m not trying to make you feel bad about yourself, most likely I’m not even thinking about you. And if I am I just wish you didn’t try to dim my light. It really hurts. If communication about your abusive behavior makes you feel bad about yourself I hope you find peace and that you get over it because I do want good things for you. You say I don’t try to help you but all you do is deflect and blame me for your unhappiness. Just don’t put me in fight or flight or start shit on purpose and I can give you what you want. I’m physically unable to give you what you want if I can’t be calm and not worry about every little thing. I know intentions aren’t everything but you seem to think so. “Who cares if they get upset if I have good intentions right? I don’t have to care about their feelings it’s just my feelings you need to care about” is how it looks on the outside. Getting mad and fighting with me and getting my heart rate up is a great way to make me feel comfortable and safe around you so I can give you what you want /s. It’s really that simple. I do care about you and if you think I’m being neglectful then ask nicely, we’re all adults here. If I hurt you I want to change so it doesn’t happen again but you are a brick wall. I know strong emotions suck but I can’t figure out how you should deal with them, I can’t do those things for you. Put some effort into it, I know you know how to figure things out and you’re smart so why can’t you see what’s best for you? And I’m not a therapist, I only know how I can help myself, but I try to help others by having curiosity and having empathy. And I talk to them softly and politely. You don’t get someone to open up to you by yelling at them and being angry. Communicate your feelings if you can and don’t take them out on me. I know life is hard but why be the scorpion that kills us both just because of your own greed? You’re causing unnecessary pain and you lie about yourself. I’m doing literally everything I can to give you what you want and it doesn’t make a difference if I do or not. I know you care about the attention I give you so that’s your incentive. And instead of being mad at me be mad at yourself and grow a fucking spine. I don’t feel bad you say you hate yourself and stuff like that because it feels like you hate me instead. I’m being myself and that’s a problem? You say I don’t try to laugh and joke with you but you force it and it makes me anxious. Those moments do happen it’s just not good enough. And I’m sorry but love me as I am and I will love you as you are. It feels like you don’t love me and you want me gone. It’s really confusing when you cry when I go on a trip like you’ll miss me but then you cause tension at home while I’m gone and I can’t do anything to protect her. And you can’t hide it from me either because it’s just a drop in the bucket at this point. I can tell when something is wrong and when you’re upset but if I ask it will start a fight. And that’s not fair. I want to be there for you but you don’t let me and you treat me like shit for it. You’re so confusing. Ughhhhhh

And there are also self-hostable alternatives although figuring out how to install and use it can be difficult. But I’m getting used to docker it’s a lot easier than when I first started.

When I worked in the auto industry they always said hookers and cocaine. I always said Skittles

It’s a balance

Wisdom teeth. Sure I was knocked out but after the sedatives and stuff wore off I had nothing for the pain. They said I could return to work the next day, is that supposed to be a joke?

I’m burned out being online anymore. It was fun and now it’s not. It’s just stressful

Vibe coded

I love this thread