I get way too much emotionally attached to the song and I can’t get things done properly, can’t focus in other things. I prefer to stay neutral, I feel like being on that emotional state can affect my judgement on making rational decisions.
I’m worried of it being affecting my life and I don’t know about it. Just like autism, after I got the diagnosis a lot of my behaviors started making sense.
There was a struggle before it because I was trying to fit in groups and it never worked, then autism diagnosis made it clear to me and know I understand myself better.
A huge weight was removed from me, I stopped blaming myself for not fitting in.
The same applies to ADHD, I’m worried I might have it and not knowing about it.
The thing is, our brain is the most complex thing of the human body.
People often prefer to use the “neurodivergent” word because you might have way more things than just autism, you might even have some undocumented disorders, it’s just hard to be specific when come to this.
It’s like trying to give a unique name to a mix of vegetables and etc… So people just came up with the world “salad”.
I personally prefer neurodivergent because I admit, not even myself, and maybe not even an specialist would be able to diagnose everything that happens in my brain. But we all know it must be something related to neurons.
I only had a formal job once.
After 3 months I started sabotage myself to get fired.
It didn’t work, in this process I found myself disliking a lot of things and blaming it as excuse to leave.
After trying 2 times and they succeed to convince me to stay, in the third I said I’m done I’m out definitively this time, then I left the job.
Man that’s very relatable, a few days ago I had to double my medication because I was almost doing it, I was about to kill myself, I was nearly ready to do it.
But hear me, just this post you made had helped me a lot, thank you for that seriously. I got autism diagnose a few months ago and every day I learn more about me, I didn’t think this could be related to autism at all.
Idk if it makes you feel better but surely gave me a new perspective that I didn’t see not even close.
Maybe I can work this out with my therapist.
I just feel like any way to get out of this hole implies that I need to make part of the modern society that only reward profit and not good actions, it’s like if it doesn’t worth to get better just to get exploited by the system.
But thank you seriously.
I literally didn’t know that and it explains a lot about me.
i’d rather risk homelessness than take a job in health insurance if i was unemployed.
It’s so relatable to me.
To be honest this strong sense o justice is killing me. There’s no place for good people on our society, let’s not talk about exceptions here, the modern world won’t let you do something good and make a living out of it.
Everywhere I see I can only see greed, people after money, companies using people, everything working hard to satisfy our greed and need for convenience. While there are so many lives out there needing basic needs, we’re exploiting animals to keep the humans living a overwhelmingly good life just to satisfy this endless need for dopamine.
I’m literally lost, 26 yo male and I live with my parents. I worked for 8 months in a software company and it was the worst time on my life. In a certain day they gave me a task to build some shit to calculate profits, something that highlights people that will be more acceptable to do business with and shit like that and I just panicked, I froze and my brain could only think “What the hell am I doing with my life? Why am I doing this? Why am I helping a company treat other people like cattle?”, then I quit in the very same day.
Ok, you might say it’s not a big deal this specific case, it was for me. I felt used, exploited.
The modern world is making me crazy, I’m needing medicines and going to therapy once a week, and I still can’t handle it and get my shit together. Greed and selfishness everywhere you look at. Nobody wants genuinely take care of others.
Before you say “why don’t you go volunteer or something”, dude just tell me where and how and I go, I don’t even need to be paid I just want basic food and somewhere to sleep, I don’t want TV, I don’t want games, I don’t want movies, I don’t want internet, I just want to feel that my actions will result in a better world for everybody, not only humans. But I live in a very small town in another country (not the great US), and opportunities here are limited.
Now I’m lost, I spent part of the money I got from all these 8 months buying trekking equipment, I think I’ll just vanish from society, I can’t stand people anymore, I’ll try to live away from all this, near savage places, but also not too far from civilization and water (rivers etc…), I’m really just tired of all this bullshit. I’ll try to live with minimum viable to keep me alive. When I need more resources I’ll try to find some manual labor in nearby small towns just to restock, then go back to living on the roads, near nature and things like that. Away from humans.
If our society values just won’t change I don’t want to make part of it.
But are you still self employed? If it’s such a hassle why do you keep doing it?
Can you elaborate?
I’d suggest you Context7 MCP, if you have an AI that supports tool calling you can use their API to make your agent call for updated docs about a given framework or language.
Your mistake is to think that I want to prove something, I don’t want to mention all your points, this is just a comment, not a scientific discussion.
I decided to try Qwen 3.5 Plus via Qwen Code CLI (Gemini CLI fork) and it’s bizarre what it can do.
It can figure out when it’s struggling to something, look on the internet for questions and docs to understand things better. It takes a lot of actions by itself, not like that bad models from 4 months ago that gets stuck on endless thinking and tweaking and never fix anything.
Recent models are thinking each time more like human programmers.
which model do you use?
I don’t think your code being used for training is a concern anymore. They’ll eventually keep finding new codes until it reaches its peak. Refusing to share your code for training will just postpone the inevitable, AI code will improve to its peak sooner or later.
What are your reasons?
The place you work don’t force you to use it?
I’ve been noticing all companies are forcing devs to use AIs to be more productive, even for simple things like write git commits.
Yes, it evolved almost exponentially in these 4 months. It’s just bizarre what recent models can do and how consistent they do it.
If you never tried it, of course, you won’t know the difference. But for those who tried surely saw a huge improvement.
That’s being a challenge, fixing the issues that come up instead of just doing a clean install.
After I switched to Arch it became much easier to fix everything, the wiki is awesome, it covers like everything.
I used to just break my Linux then clean install it.
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All my overthinking and conversation simulation in my mind was considering only 3 people at max. Now I don’t know how to react anymore.